Well, I guess it was bound to happen sooner or later..

This journal is now officially dead. Beyond resurrection, probably. Abandoned due to lack of time and interest. Which any sensible person should've realized by now, in any case, seeing that there's a 7-month gap between the last update and this one.

I actually have a life (well, sort of) nowadays, which makes writing here even more of a pain than it used to be. And since it has reached the point of painfulness where I'd rather hit my head against the wall than update, I think it's time to give up. Or give it a break, at least.

I honestly hope that my Livejournal days aren't over and that I'll get into writing again if when my sorry ass life dies away. Until then, however, I'll have to amuse myself with other not-so-educational activities.

It has been fun, LJ, hopefully I'll be back some of these days.

2006-06-30

Johnny Depp thinks his 'Pirates of the Caribbean' character Captain Jack Sparrow is gay.

The actor, who modeled the swashbuckling pirate on Rolling Stones guitarist Keith Richards, has confessed he camped-up his role to make it more realistic. --

Read the whole thing

Mmmyes. At least one of the crew members has realized Jack's true nature.

I have an embarrassing confession to make: I've been watching way too much TV and the result is that I'm completely hooked on Bednaya Nastya (jep, kyse on Anastasiasta :P). I, a committed soap hater. To be honest, at first I only watched it for Vladimir but lately I've been obsessing about everything even slightly connected to the series. Weird things have happened to me because of this.

Also - and this is much less embarrassing, if at all - I've taken quite a liking to Kyou Kara Maou, which I started watching a few days ago (on ep 25 now). It's absolutely one of the funniest anime series I've ever seen; my ribs hurt from laughing too much and all that jazz. I constantly find myself giggling at something - when I'm not laughing my ass off, that is. Not to mention it's filled with bishies, which is never a bad thing. Gwendal and Conrad are oh-so-hot and Wolfram's jealousy episodes are pretty cute, too. Quite an interesting set of brothers, don't you think?

Gunter's love for Yuuri is frightening. The sad thing is, I can relate to him. Not that I adore Yuuri that much but I can think of a couple of characters to put in his place. And that talking sword is frigging gross.

Only a few more days for Animecon, though I'm not sure whether I'll be able to go yet. I don't really have the time or the money (god knows how much I'd spend there) but, on the other hand, I really want to go. Geez, I just don't know. Wouldn't it be nice to have someone else making all these annoying decisions for you? Hmm. Maybe not.

If only I was one of those people who can spot an interesting manga, rave about it for a while and then graciously move on without spending all their money on it. :D

I know, I know. I'm the laziest writer in the world, indeed. My humble apologies; it'll never happen again.. except the next time I get lazy.

Say hello to a new biology student at the University of Oulu! The studies begin in September so I'll probably move out at the turn of the month. Haven't found a new apartment yet but I'm sure something will turn up eventually. It freaks me out to think that I'm going to live so far away from.. well, everything, but who knows, it might be nice for a change. I'm just not too fond of the idea of sitting more than six hours on the train whenever I feel like visiting my parents.

Last week I went to the movies (two at the price of one!) and had a blast, I must say. I somehow managed to talk a friend into coming along to see She's the Man, which was actually quite good if you were able to ignore the overly sappy last 20 minutes. Sure, the plot was kind of simple but it had its moments. Then again, I probably would've enjoyed it no matter how bad it was, for the sole reason that I get a kick out of girls dressing as boys. Must've gotten that from Hana-Kimi. :D

On Friday, after days of agonizing waiting, I finally got to see Pirates of the Caribbean: Death Man's Chest - and ab-so-lu-te-ly loved it. In fact, I was pleasantly surprised as I didn't have very high expectations beforehand, seeing that sequels pretty much always suck. Except for the Bad Boys II, which, being even better than its predecessor, is the exception that proves the rule. Anyway, I didn't think it was even possible to hate Elizabeth more than I already did, but she proved me wrong by being even more annoying than in the first movie. On the other hand, Capt. Sparrow was as hot as ever, making it hard for me to get any sleep that night at all. I also managed to stumble into some fanfiction and discovered the wonderful world of Jack/Norrington. So much for not spending the whole week on the computer.

Hmmh. I really need to get out of the house more often. I've been stuck inside for weeks because I started re-reading Wheel of Time (got annoyed by the lack of development last time, and stopped reading half-way) and now I can't stop it. I guess I could read outside but it's a pain to find a decent place to sit down without having five screaming kids running over you every five minutes.

Just now, I got struck by a sudden crave for ice cream, and god forbid I ever deny myself such a delicacy. Until next time.

I'm busy studying for university entrance exams so don't expect to hear from me much for a while. I have seven books to read - four of those are the same I had in high school and shouldn't have any problems with, so I'm not too worried. Still, there are moments when I wonder what have I got myself into; a book about the history of the Nordic countries is boring as hell and another one about the world's religions is just plain horrible with too many concepts and names to remember. I'm only human, for crying out loud.

I'm applying to study biology, agriculture, history and japanology. And if I happen to get into every university I apply to, I'm screwed, as I have no idea where I want to go the most. I've had a year to think about these things and I still don't know what I want. Bummer.

Ugh, back to studying, I have a tight schedule - of which, surprisingly, I haven't yet fallen behind. And won't, as long as I don't loiter around here too much.

We came back to Finland yesterday but I was too tired to write until today. Didn't get any sleep on the plane so before last night I hadn't slept for at least 38 hours. I nearly collapsed when I got home; surprisingly, I still woke up pretty early in the morning.

Malaysia was HOT. The minimum of 34°C every day and no rain to speak of. A bit too warm for me, but better than current temperature here in Finland, that's for sure. Another thing I noticed about Langkawi was that it is in no way a tourist trap. Sure, you can tell that the place is a tourist attraction, but there's no sign of the sad examples of the dark side of tourism. The beaches were nearly empty - nothing like the overcrowded beaches in the Canary Islands, for example - and there really weren't that many tourists around. No dead drunk Finns, either. XD Didn't do much, just relaxed and enjoyed the warmth.

Actually, our holiday was a bit shorter than expected because we were stuck in India for a day. The plane broke down when a big eagle flew through the engine just before the take-off - I think the front wheel was in the air already. There was a loud BANG and lots of rumbling; for a moment there I was sure as hell that we're all going to die. Lucky we were still on the ground, otherwise it could've been pretty nasty. Freaking scary, I tell you.

I realized I hate flying. Sitting still for more than 12 hours on an uncomfortable chair with too little space is not nice at all.

The hotel TV channel rotated the same movies again and again and somehow I ended up watching Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets three times during our stay. And, well... You can imagine what that does to one's mind.

I'd write more but there's really not much to say. Woke up, then went to breakfast, changed clothes, went to beach, came back. That's pretty much what happened every day. Not very interesting, is it?

Oh yeah, if you haven't seen this Harry Potter sketch from Saturday Night Live, I suggest that you do it now. I saw it in the morning and I'm still laughing. 8D

I just realized the day we're leaving for Malaysia is Valentine's Day. Funny it didn't occur to me until now; I probably would've forgotten the whole thing had a friend not mentioned it to me. I haven't even drawn the Valentine's cards yet.. Uh, I'll try to finish them before returning to Finland, I promise. There's no way I can get them done before Tuesday so.. you'll get them a bit late but you will get them - and that's what matters, right?

Is it just me or did the ending of Fullmetal Alchemist really... suck? Not the worst anime ending ever but not too far from it either. I can't believe they destroyed a perfectly good show with such a stupid ending. It was good until episode 30 or so, then the plot started getting weird and the last episode was just plain torture (ok, maybe i am exaggerating a bit, but with FMA being one of my favorite mangas ever, the anime was a huge disappointment). Sadly, that's what often happens when anime catches up with the manga and the creators have to improvise (read: write their own ending). Oh, I hate it when the anime stops following the manga and such crappy plot twists emerge. And FMA had such potential, too.. *sigh*

Finally convinced myself to watch Samurai Champloo and fell in love immediately. Jin is so gay, even if he lives in denial. You fool no one, my friend.

Got re-addicted to Final Fantasy VII after watching FFVII: Advent Children and FFVII: Last Order. Liked both very much. The fighting scenes were actually quite good, even though I suspect Tetsuya Nomura has never heard of the laws of physics (Zack dodging bullets, anyone?). XD Oh, and one hilarious Barret quote, from the scene where Cloud saves his ass:

"You're late, bitch!"

ROFL. So he's your bitch now, eh?

And give me more Reno, dammit! Going to find some fanfiction now.

Oh dear, my journal is dying.. Let's see if I can revive it. I've had a lot in my mind lately but somehow I haven't managed to write anything down. I still can't, but I should be able to do some idle talk, at the very least.

Went to see Brokeback Mountain today, gosh it was good. I absolutely loved it. I wish they made more westerns these days - I'm a huge fan of the whole cowboy culture, god knows why. Despite (or rather, because of) all the tragedy the story was really beautiful, even better than I had hoped for. Jake Gyllenhaal as Jack was damn cute, too. Definitely worth watching. Hell of a sad ending though. I think I was kind of in a daze after it; it didn't really hit me until I got home and nearly cried my eyes out. If you haven't yet, go see it now. Shoo!

Because I haven't been able to sleep, I've been watching the Late Night with Conan O'Brien quite a lot lately. I keep thinking that there must be something seriously wrong with me if I watch it every night - I mean, it's not that good, is it? Getting kind of tired of his jokes about Finland, though. How much fun can you get out of a country this size, anyway? Also, it's a bit embarrassing. I'm talking about the episode with an invitation video from the people of Turku. After seeing it, I was actually ashamed to be a Finn. Lucky I don't live in Turku, I think that would've been too much for my sanity. :P

Oh, guess who's leaving for Malaysia on the 14th? I haven't been on a real vacation for a long time so I'm really excited about this. Two long weeks lying on a beach and swimming in the ocean.. Boy, I can hardly wait.

Except that ever since I saw the first episode of Lost, I've been afraid of planes. Pretty damn good series, by the way.

Next week, I'm meeting my former best friend. We haven't seen each other in eight months, so I'm a little worried about how it's going to turn out. I'm not even sure what when wrong and why we stopped talking to each other, but I sure as hell don't want it to happen all over again. I guess it began with one of those stupid fights we all get in sometimes; the ones that start with no reason and always end badly. You know, misunderstandings on both sides - she thinks I don't want to see her and I think she doesn't want to see me, so we stop calling each other. Really stupid. Oh, the difficulty of apologizing. Well, there's no point worrying about it. I'm sure it'll all go just fine and everything will be hunky-dory. That's what I ought to think, anyways. We'll see.

Now, waiting for people to start writing some good Brokeback Mountain fanfiction. :D

Did you already know that Anarchy Online is free of charge until January 15th 2007?

My apartment is finally beginning to look like someone is actually living there. :) I have a sofa! It's the first sofa I've ever had and I love it very much (hell, after three months of sitting on the floor you'll love pretty much any piece of junk you can find - not that my sofa is junk, it's not). Now that I have some pieces of furniture to sit on and most of the cardboard boxes have been hidden in the closet, I could probably invite people to come over without totally embarrassing myself. A Christmas party, anyone?

Started reading Neil Gaiman's American Gods, which I've been hunting for for ages. Ever noticed how those books you really want to read are never in the library when you go to look for them, but mysteriously show up on the shelves as soon as you've left the building? (that's what it feels like, anyway) And when you go back the next day, they're gone already. It's like a curse - every book you've ever wanted is available as long as you are nowhere near them. Either that or I just have a really bad timing.

Slowly but surely, Christmas is starting to get on my nerves. Told ya. God I hate December.

I think I had something important to write but it seems I've forgotten.

Bought a bonsai tree today. I'm seriously afraid that I will kill it since I've had difficulties keeping even the normal easy-to-take-care-of plants alive. Maybe I should have bought something else but I've wanted a bonsai really badly for a long time so.. Anyways, if it survives the first few weeks, it should be relatively safe.

Oh, and happy holidays. :)

It seems I was away far longer than expected, but I'm finally back. It took awfully lot of time to get a new Internet connection and I didn't really feel like writing my journal in the library. Then I got depressed and didn't feel like writing at all anymore, so the gap between the last post and this one just kept growing.. Better late than never, I guess.

Luckily, I was able to find a nice apartment and only had to stay at my mom's for one month (one month too much, we really got on each other's nerves). The rent is a bit higher than I had hoped for but still manageable. It would be a nice place if I had the energy to furnish properly; at the moment I have nearly no furniture, only my computer desk and a few chairs. I'm sleeping on a mattress on the floor since I didn't feel like buying a new bed (saving for a futon, hopefully I'll sleep better on one of those). All my stuff is still in cardboard boxes; the place looks exactly the same as it did when I had just moved in, and I've been living here for three months now. Kind of sad, isn't it?

In September I worked as a trainee in a veterinary practice, which was pretty fun. I really liked working there but at the time it was too tiring for me so I quit after one month. Next Monday I'm beginning work at a health/spirituality store, hope it'll work out well. At least the shop seemed really interesting and the manager was nice, so I have high expectations.

What else, what else..? My social life has totally died since all my friends have moved out of town, I'm depressed (again) and have no idea what I want to do with my life. Nice. For once, I don't hate Christmas (but give me a few more weeks and I will, trust me). That's about it.

Ugh, I don't feel like writing anymore. When did writing in LJ become such a pain? And why do I feel guilty if I don't write? Quite sick, really.

I'm going to be away for a while (staying at my mom's and thus have no access to internet). Will be back in September at the earliest, possibly later.

Wow, at last I had the patience to sit down for a while and learn how to download files via IRC. Finally I can get my hands on those damn releases I couldn't get before! I feel so stupid now, since it was actually quite simple and didn't take me more than a few minutes to figure out. Why didn't I understand the way it works before? Anyways, I hate using IRC for downloading (it sucks, in case you didn't know) but I guess I'll just have to deal with it. Or no good BL manga for me. :P

Only two more weeks until I have to move out and I still haven't found a new apartment. This is seriously starting to get on my nerves. Every time I find a suitable place - neither too small nor too expensive, that is - someone else has been faster than me. So, it's back to searching again. Talk about bad luck.. Anyway, if I can't find a place to stay I'll probably have to dump my belongings in my aunt's house (it's quite spacious) and go.. well, I'm not really sure where I should go but surely I'll figure out something.

I also should find myself a job or internship before they get completely tired of me at the employment agency. The problem is, it's kind of hard to find a job if you don't know where you'll be living after a few weeks. I've been asking around a little but I just feel stupid when prospective employers ask when I could start and all I can give as an answer is "I don't know". Oh well. Hopefully something'll pop up before the end of July.

Oh yeah, it seems like this journal is dying.. It's not! It's just that I've been quite busy lately, and haven't really felt like writing when I've had the time to do so. Sadly, this will probably be the only post in July since I'm going to be even busier starting next week. But I'm still here, lurking in the shadows. ^^

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Ooh, Black Cat and D.Gray-Man got licensed by Viz. Finally! Boy, have I been waiting for this.. Black Cat is one of my favorite mangas and D.Gray-Man isn't bad either. Luvs.

Been busy making icons again. And I finally got my icon journal started so someone might actually see these ones.. XD

Right. I wanted to write something clever but laziness got me.. It's too nice a day to be spent indoors, anyway.

Now I remember why I hate meeting my relatives so much. Sure, family reunions suck generally, but my relatives have a gift to turn them into hell. Damn me for being stupid enough to go to my aunt's birthday party. I managed to escape into my tent after four long hours of small talk with people I can't stand. Later in the evening I decided to go back to the house to use the bathroom, which I strongly regretted after seeing what was going on. When you see that your relatives have turned a birthday party into a booze-up - and are now dancing polka and singing karaoke - trust me, all you want is to be somewhere else (the further away the better).

Right now I have tons of things to do but it seems I can't get anything done. I should clean up the whole apartment, do the laundry, wash the carpets, pack some of my belongings into cardboard boxes and do various smaller tasks. Oh, and I should probably go to the library and return the huge pile of books in the corner. I guess summer makes me lazy.

Counting days for the release of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. Still too many to go.

This morning has certainly been a busy one. I had to wake up at 7:30 (which was a pain since I usually don't wake up until 9:00) to make sure that I'd make it in time for an info meeting at the employment agency. After that I was supposed to try and find some clothes but ended up spending all my cash on DVDs instead. Then I got two calls from school; one from the school nurse who wanted to know where I live because she had some papers to send, and another from the headmaster who asked me to come to school on Friday so that he can hand me my high school diploma personally. I had thought that he would just mail it to me since I won't be attending the graduation ceremony, but apparently he wants to give it to me himself. I hope he's not expecting a hug.

Lately, I've had some serious trouble with sleeping. My dreams are getting weirder and weirder. Last night I had a dream that included my ex-boyfriend, a group of yellow monkeys, World War III and a broken promise. And that was one hell of a weird dream, I tell you. The night before that I dreamed I was a guy. A gay guy, to be precise. Which was actually pretty cool, especially when my imaginary boyfriend showed up. XD Anyways, it's kind of hard to fall asleep when you don't know what happens after you close your eyes. It's not very nice to wake up in the middle of the night convinced that there's something big and hungry under your bed, you know.

It's summer time! The beginning of summer always makes me feel all happy and smiley (at the end of it i just pray it would end). I can finally read a nice book in the yard or go to the beach or do any of those activities that are impossible during the other seasons. However, there's one thing that I (and the rest of humanity) really hate about summer... family reunions. Oh yes, they're here again. I was hoping that I could come up with a good excuse and skip the damn gatherings this year but it seems there's no way out of it. It's because I'm not having a graduation party that everyone expects to see me at the family reunion so they can congratulate me there. What a bother.

Why does everyone make such a big deal of graduation anyway? It's not like three years of studying is something you can't manage. Not that big of an achievement, if you ask me. Oh well, maybe I'm just weird and can't understand things this complicated. Wouldn't be the first time.

I should go to the employment agency but I'm too lazy to dig out my bike.

...

Which draws us to a conclusion: get a driver's license, already!

Damn.

Someone sent me this meme and I was bored so..

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